I am not grieving, even underneath the forest canopy though the edges of my life have curled where the leaf litter crumbles like paper set on fire, charred and turned into decay that feeds a more precious nature due to its brush with death and more tinder-like qualities: dry, brittle, catches with abundantly close vigor, burns long enough to release carbon and other chemicals that heat and light and catch onto dry roots nearby to start a bigger fire, make a little life.