While I was sober
as a nun I filled
whole journals;
carved out my brain
to pin that slick
pulsing fruit & find
the weakness. Instead
I found tethers to eat
me alive. I bargained
with my circuitry; poked
around my heated
seething heart. Another
month cracked open like
a black new egg & I set
alarms to be grateful:
what a gift, to know
exactly what harm
your mind will do. To
know what wrote you.
as a nun I filled
whole journals;
carved out my brain
to pin that slick
pulsing fruit & find
the weakness. Instead
I found tethers to eat
me alive. I bargained
with my circuitry; poked
around my heated
seething heart. Another
month cracked open like
a black new egg & I set
alarms to be grateful:
what a gift, to know
exactly what harm
your mind will do. To
know what wrote you.
